Putting up a wall or jumping in?

Pagkatapos ng pagkarami- rami mong experiences sa pag-ibig, naging maganda man o hindi, bigo man o naging winner ka, I know you have asked yourself firsthand whether to put up a wall or take a chance on it.

Ano ba talaga ang dapat?

Siguro sa mga taong paulit-ulit na nabibigo at nasasaktan, sila yung mga taong takot na. Sila ang naglalagay ng 'wall'. Sila ang mga taong naging manhid, dense, bato at nagkaroon ng sobra sobrang fears. Sila yung mga taong sinasara na ang mga puso at dedma na ang emosyon. At kung meron mang natitira pang kahit konting emosyon o pagtingin eh pilit tinatago at pinipigilan bago pa maging malalim. Hindi ko sila masisi. Sino ba ang gustong makaranas ng madalas na failed relationships, ng paulit-ulit na rejections??

Pero hindi naman lahat eh ganyan, there are people who take things positively. Kahit na yung hindi masyadong magandang pangyayari sa buhay nila eh hahanapan at hahanapan pa rin ng dahilan ng magandang rason kung bakit hindi naging maganda ang ending.
Pains and heartaches made these people strong. And these people also think that they have already learned and the next time they would fall, they'd know what to do...

Oh well, that's what I thought. Kabilang ako sa mga taong yun. Kala ko, I already know better. Kala ko, I've already learned what buttons to push. Hindi pala ganun kadali yun lalo na pag andun ka na sa sitwasyon. Magbabago at magbabago ang views mo. Kahit anong intindi mo sa tama, pinipili mo pa ring maging mali!

Again, I have proof that I just need to quit jumping. I have many reasons to stay afraid of getting hurt because I jumped and now I am crying about it!

Paano ko ba mababago to? May formula ba? May scientific calculation ba?

Sabi nila, it’s as much about the journey as it is the destination. Alam ko naman yun, but the thing that scares me is that there is no real destination for me.
Meron kaya?

Sometimes when someone ask us to stay, we feel important.But then at the back of our mind, we ask ourselves...Are we wanted or just needed?

6 have spoken:

pamatayhomesick said...

syempre meron,gaya ng sabi mo na paligid lang ng bakuran(wall) nyo yan,pag may nakita ka,hayaan mong tumalon sya para sayo..or wag mo nang pakawalan,ikaw na mismo ang tumalon sa bakod,kundi mo type,talon ka nalang palayo..he he he...nice post!

lucas said...

there's always a future for every one of us. we are the masters of our own fate. but also remember that the choice will do today will affect the rest of our lives. how's it going to be? building walls or building bridges... i'll go for the latter but there's no need to rush :)

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Unknown said...

toni toni poponi
bananabana poponi...

dont worry, there are people
u'll meet na willing tanggalin
yung wall na yan para sau..
(if there's any)

another thing, tama ka when
u said na when ur the one
involved e talagang nakakapanibago
at parang neophyte ka pa
lang palage everytime nandun ka
sa situation na yun..

well, thats the beauty of it.
kapag tinanggal mo yun e ...
you'll end up bored .. di ba?

Toni said...

@ever

para naman akong tipaklong nyan? puro talon! hahaha! joke.
di muna siguro...nakakapagod na eh.rest po muna..lol
thanks po for dropping by.

@roneiluke

hhmm ako, for now,puro walls nakikita ko.parang mas gusto ko muna yung ganun. but hey, i know gigibain ko rin tong mga pader na ito, hopefully soon!
thanks ha?!

Toni said...

@r2r

talaga? may mga taong magtatanggal ng wall for me?asan? tagal naman...lol

yeah ur right, different situation, another experience.di lahat pare pareho.

bored? parang mas gusto ko na lang ma bore minsan...hahaha!

thanks ron!:)

onatdonuts said...

darating din siya...

ang lalaking karapat-dapat...ang siyang bubuwag sa dambuhalang wall na ikaw mismo ang nagtayo...tandaan mo, maging great wall of china man yan, wala nang mas titindi pa sa tawag ng pag-ibig, bwahaha totoo yun.

wag ka kasing masyadong magmadali at ma-frustrate...darating din siya...iginuhit na ni Lord sa iyong tadhana ang nalalapit ninyong pagtatagpo. kaya wag malungkot ok...