I freaking love you



Wow... a third blog entry about you, wait... isn't that some kind of freaky medical condition? Anyways, see how special you are to me? I'm writing yet another post that shows how completely, utterly, and truly in love I am with you...everyday is better than the last, and this is just the beginning.

Over the last few months, you and I have learned so much about one another... We share so many things in common, so many stories to tell...How could you help but think that there's a higher plan to us meeting? You understand me, and accepts me for who I am, flaws and all. You have made it easy for me to fall in love with you, to need you, and to accept you too, unconditionally. We never planned for this, it was all so unexpected, but I guess real love is like that. I'm right where I belong, in your arms, and I'm in yours.

You are my best friend, my confidant, my lover, and so much more... I can't picture my
life without you now, and I don't want to...

Thank you for coming into my
life baby... thank you for being everything that you are, and most of all, thank you for giving our love a chance to grow. I know that we can make it all work, together,side by side.

You are, without a doubt, my every dream come true, my every wish granted, and my every prayer answered. I love you baby, forever and ever, and a day...


on love and being inlove...






INLOVE ka ba or LOVE mo sya? Akala ko dati pareho lang pero iba pala!

It's definitely different when you love someone and when you're inlove with someone. Alin nga ba ang mas malalim? Loving someone or Being in love with someone? Marami sa atin ang na-confuse tungkol dito.

Ikaw ba ay may girlfriend o boyfriend ngayon? Mahal mo ba siya pero parang may isang tao na parang mahalaga din sayo? O may mahal ka na akala mo eh mahal mo nga siya pero meron ka pa rin isang tao na minamahal ng totoo? Kapag love mo ang isang tao masaya ka...Feeling mo ok na ang lahat...

Pero ang ma-inlove ka, ang siyang pinakamasakit sa lahat! Kasi ang mga taong inlove ay ang mga taong ngsasakripisyo at nagpaparaya. Teka bakit ka nga ba nagpaparaya? Dahil ba hindi ka niya mahal o dahil hindi ka siguradong ok lang sa kanya? Kung yan ang dahilan mo, walang duda na inlove ka nga sa kanya.
Kasi iniisip mo kung anong meron kayo sa ngayon ang tanging mahalaga at kuntento ka na.

Pero isipin mo, paano kung mawala ang taong yun at talagang hindi na kayo mag-usap at magkita, kaya mo ba? Paano naman kung sayo siya inlove at ibinigay niya ang lahat para sayo pero hindi mo napahalagahan ang lahat ng ito kaagad? Paano kung isang araw naguluhan na siya sayo ng husto at maisipang lumayo na lang? Paano kung sa sobrang pagiging iba mo sa kanya di ka na niya kausapin at tuldukan na niya ng tuluyan kung ano na ang meron kayo? Then bigla mong na realize kung gaano ka importante sayo ang bawat isa kaya lang wala na siya! Kaya mo ba? Kung hindi ang sagot mo, malinaw na inlove ka nga...

Paano naman pag mahal mo lang? Kapag mahal mo lang, alam mo na palagi kang may choice, ayaw mo siyang mawala dahil alam mong wala kang ipapalit. Yung masaya ka sa kanya pero sa gabi hindi naman siya ang iniisip mo. Mahal mo siya pero aminado ka sa sarili mo na balang araw hindi siya ang pakakasalan mo. Mahal mo siya pero ang puso mo hindi lang para sa kanya...Mahal mo at masasaktan ka pag nawala siya pero alam mo na kaya mo yun.

Now tell me what you feel... Do you love someone or you're inlove with someone?

Ako? I am inlove! Deeply inlove with someone ...bakit ko nasabi?

well, because of him, I smile without reason...
I miss him... I worry... I compromise...
I wanna look good kahit di nya ako nakikita...
I feel special and secure
I feel connected and protected
I have this glowing aura
I long to be with him
I love the sound of his voice esp when he whispers
I daydream about him off and on, replaying pieces of our conversation
Hearing him breathe is ok na
His out of tune voice is music to my ears
He makes me look forward to mornings

I can enumerate a lot of things and still not enough to express how much I feel for him. I love him unconditionally, not expecting anything in return...just enjoying what we have now.

He accepts me as I am, loves me with my flaws and all. He lets me be me. He has a big heart, so honest and true. He calms my inner fears, making sure I'm always ok. I can feel the sincerity when he speaks...the classy, elegance when he talks. I keep thinking of how much I love talking to him, how much I love his laugh. He is such a spoiler, gives in to my requests. He's everything a woman would want in a guy ..oh wait he's not just a guy..he is a MAN! A man that is very gentle and sensitive. He has all the qualities that makes a man a real man.

Ang sarap niyang magmahal at mahalin...and hell yeah, I am so inlove with him! I constantly think of ways to make him smile. But then again, this love I feel for him is not 'owning'. Making him freakishly happy is my mission...

I love him without conditions...without reservations...without holding back...

I wonder what will happen when we finally be together and eventhough neither of us know what the future holds, I know one thing for sure ... He is the best thing that ever happened to me!


Ikaw...


I am another year older today. Yes, birthday ko ngayon! Dati - rati it was just another day for me. Nothing special. Walang handa. Walang regalo. Usually greetings lang from friends and family ang nakukuha ko. But I don't feel bad about it. Ok lang. Ganun talaga. I am just thankful na God has given me another year. Pero today, iba! I am celebrating the happiest birthday ever! Ganun pa rin, walang handa, walang gimik but I have the most wonderful gift from above...Ikaw!

Ikaw na nagmamahal sa akin ng buong puso.
Ikaw na nagbibigay inspirasyon sa kin.
Ikaw na nagbibigay kulay sa dati kong black and white na mundo.
Ikaw na dahilan ng mga ngiti ko sa labi.
Ikaw na dahilan kung bakit gusto ko gumising sa madaling araw.
Ikaw na dahilan kung bakit gusto ko mag-diet.
Ikaw na dahilan kung bakit gusto ko magpa-rebond ng buhok.
Ikaw na handa akong gawin lahat para sa ikaliligaya mo.
Ikaw na dahilan ng taimtim kong pagdarasal para sa tuluyan mong paggaling.
Ikaw na dahilan ng pagiging malawak ng aking pang unawa.
Ikaw na dahilan ng mabilis na pagtibok ng puso ko, ng bawat kilig, ng lahat ng antisipasyon.
Ikaw na bigay ng maykapal.
Ikaw na lahat lahat sa buhay ko ngayon...at ikaw na dahilan ng pagsusulat kong muli.

Salamat mahal ko! Salamat sa ligayang dulot ng pagmamahal mo. Di mahalaga yung sasabihin ng iba, basta mahal kita. Wag ka ng mag-isip pa dahil handa akong tanggapin kung ano ka. Basta't para sayo ako'y magmamahal muli, handa akong masaktan kahit paulit-ulit. Masaktan man ako, di na mahalaga dahil di naman mapapantayan ang kaligayahan ko sa piling mo.

Ikaw ang aking mahal...
Ang panghabangbuhay kong kaibigan...
At sa bawat araw na nagdaraan, lalo lamang tumitindi ang pananabik kong mahalin ka ng lubos!