Sweet Misery

Nagsimula sa simpleng pag-uusap. Isang magandang pagkakaibigan ang namuo sa ating dalawa. Una pa lang naging tapat ka na sa akin. Sinabi mo na may nagmamay-ari na ng iyong puso. In fact, you are already engaged. Tanggap ko ito at di na umasa pang may posibleng mangyari sa atin beyond friendship.

Pero iba ka. Everyday I get to like you more. We can talk about even the nonsense things in the world and still end up laughing. We can talk for hours and hours without boring each other.

Yun yata ang sinasabi nilang 'connection'. Everyday I look forward to talking to you. You squeeze the thoughts in my head. With you, there are no dull moments. Your everyday 'sms' delights me. You inspire and bring out the best in me. I wanna look good everyday kahit na di mo naman ako nakikita.


Gusto kong isipin na may pagtingin ka rin sakin but I was also thinking na you were just being nice and polite.

Until that day you asked me to be your 'girlfriend'.
Tama ba yung narinig ko?
You wanted me to be your girlfriend.
I got confused. Sinasabi ng utak ko, mali! Hindi tama! Pero tumatalon naman ang puso ko sa tuwa.
Tinanong mo kung ok lang at tanggap ko ang sitwasyon.Ok? Kailan pa naging ok yun? It's just not damn fair!Sabi yun ng utak ko. Mali! Hindi tama! Unfair!

Pero eto ako ngayon, my heart ruled over my head. Tinanggap ko. I am now your girlfriend. Sabi ko I can love unconditionally, yung walang ini-expect in return. I am ready for the consequences. Kung ano lang ang kaya mong ibigay, ayos lang.

Masaya ba ako? Yes I am. Pero hanggang kailan?

Call me fool, call me whatever you want. I don't really care. Basta alam ko mahal kita at I won't get tired of showing and letting you know about it. Kahit sa sandaling panahon lang, kahit sa pansamantalang pagkakataon lang.

Next month na ang kasal mo. Paano na ako? Iiwan mo na ba ako?
Anuman ang maging desisyon mo, I am ready for it.
Kaya ko. Kakayanin ko.


I know I cannot make someone love me forever, all I can do is love that someone with all my heart...
The rest is up to the person to realize my worth...

8 have spoken:

lucas said...

Oh my... you really love the guy huh? im not imposing anything here pero medyo nahihirapan akong intindihin... mahal ka niya, mahal niya din yung fiance niya... possible be tlagang magmahal ng dalawang tao at the same time?

Abou said...

ako kaya ko magmahal ng maramihan ha ha

Toni said...

@roneiluke
I don't really know if it's really possible to love 2 persons equally the same.Selfish intentions siguro.He wants to keep us both.Ako naman si gaga,pumayag di ba? In fairness to him, hindi naman nya ako pinilit. He even told me that I can bail out anytime.
But u know, I just realized that I am just prolonging the agony. I know it'll end eventually.
I better get myself out of the situation before I fall too deep.

Hey salamat sa pagdaan ha?! hehe

@abou
ako din naman kaya ko eh...paramihan tayo? joke hahaha

lucas said...

ahhh... i see. selfish intentions? doesn't sound love to me but i know you'll figure things out :) and knowing the right path like what you just said makes you one step closer :) let us choose the right. it might not all rainbows but happiness is definitely at the end of it :)

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addicted? hindi ko pa ata napapakinggan yun. hehehe! matagal na tong sober alam ko. macheck nga minsan.

redhorse? hindi pa ako nakakainom nun. super hard lang kasi kaya ng tiyan ko. hahaha!

Unknown said...

wowowowowow!!!
ano tong kaguluhang
ito Toni!!!

haha, well, its
ur decision naman..
...

la lang, dont
wanna comment ng
sobra coz i kinda
know that situation
a lot! haha

playin' safe ba.. hehe

Roland said...

hello fan, if you want to hear my advise... let go of the guy na lang... kasi ikakasal na siya... kung ikaw ang pipiliin nya... anung assurance na pag dumating yung time na kayo naman ang ikakasal at may nakilala siyang ibang girl... masisiguro mo bang ndi nya uulitin yun sau?

if want friends... check out my blog roll!! ...dami dun guy, mga cute pa.

Toni said...

@ronturon

hahaha!ur funny! may dapat ba akong malaman? meron ka bang sikretong malupet?? hahaha...kidding

@roland

As I'm writing this reply to u, I just did! I broke up w/ him 5mins ago. Masakit pero relieved naman cuz I know it's the right thing to do.

onatdonuts said...

medyo kakaiba ito toni...hindi na ako nag-blush sa post mong ito hahaha

anlabo nman nung lalaki kasi alam na nga niyang mag-aasawa na siya pero niligawan ka pa rin niya. Malamang ay batid niya na may pagtingin ka talaga sa kanya, sa umpisa pa lamang pero hindi niya dapat sinamantala ang nararamdaman mo sa kanya.

Tama si roland, sa pagkakataong ito, isipin mo na rin ang iyong sarili...ang iyong kaligayahan. Dahil sa sitwasyon mo ngayon, masyado itong kumpliklado at maaari itong humantong sa hindi magandang resulta.

I'm just concern for you. You are such a sweet soul and you deserve someone who is willing to love you with all his heart. ;-)